Am I Really Alright?
“is he alright"?”
I’ve been asking myself that question a lot lately.
This past month has been heavy. My employer is likely enforcing a return-to-office policy, and because I live full-time in an Airstream RV—traveling the country and working remotely—I may soon be out of a job.
Not because of my performance.
Not because I want to leave.
But because I simply can’t show up in an office I don’t live near.
I’ve known this day might come. But that doesn’t make it easier. I’ve worked hard to build a life that balances creativity, tech, and freedom. But now, the walls feel like they’re closing in. And the question I’ve kept coming back to is:
“Am I really alright?”
The Truth Behind the Song
“Alright” was written long before this job situation boiled over.
But somehow, it predicted how I’d feel right now.
The song talks about the pressure to keep it together on the outside while falling apart on the inside. It’s about the voice in your head that convinces you you’re not enough—even when you know you’ve done the work. It’s about grappling with imposter syndrome, high-functioning anxiety, and the fear of being forgotten.
And it’s honest. Brutally honest.
Lines like:
“These hands on my neck be feeling so tight…”
“Pretending everywhere that I am alright…”
…weren’t meant to be poetic.
They were meant to be confessions.
When Life Forces the Dream
I always dreamed of being a full-time artist.
But I thought I had more time.
Now, this RTO policy is forcing my hand.
And honestly? I’m scared.
I don’t feel ready. I don’t feel “good enough.”
But if I wait for the fear to disappear, I’ll never move.
So this is me—moving anyway.
Through the fear.
Through the pressure.
Through the quiet question: “Am I alright?”
Listen to the Song
This one means a lot to me.
If you’ve ever felt the weight of pretending…
If you’ve ever asked yourself “am I really okay?”…
Then I hope this song gives you something real to hold on to.
🎧 Listen below
📖 Read the lyrics
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Listen: ‘Alright’
Lyrics: Alright
Alright
I keep sounding real ungrateful for the life that I live
But you don’t understand I got so much to give
I keep fighting every battle every inch of my chest
Til my last breath
got nothing left
Looking inside of myself I run from the psychology
Crazy overwhelmed seems it’s my philosophy
When I look inside myself there always is a part of me
Fall right on my knees I owe myself apologies
Oooh
I have no excuse
Got nothing to prove
But In my head imma lose
Yeah…
Wonder if I’m alright
These hands on my neck be feeling so tight
Something about this here not feeling so right
Pretending everywhere that I am alright
Alright
Wonder if I’m alright
These hands on my neck be feeling so tight
Something about this here not feeling so right
Pretending everywhere that I am alright
Alright
Look at me scared
Look at me picking at scabs,
crying and pulling my hair
Look at me picking apart
Every day every part
Like I’m doomed from the start in despair
I question if I even care
No… No…
Walking down these steps I keep my head on up
But disappointment comes to keep me stuck
Like
Oooh
I have no excuse
Got nothing to prove
But In my head imma lose
Yeah…
Wonder if I’m alright
These hands around my neck be feeling so tight
Something about this here not feeling so right
Pretending everywhere that I am alright
Alright
Support the Journey
If this song moved you, or if you just want to help me keep going:
Buy the track → Alright on BandCamp
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Final Thought
I don’t know what happens next.
But I know I’ve got music.
And I know I’ve got you.
Thanks for walking this road with me.
—Edwin aka ProjectEdwin
